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1. my full name rhymes, rachel LYNN hendrickSEN
2. i have a birthmark under my left ring toe
3. i use drawing and writing as an outlet
4. born and raised in neptune, new jersey
5. if i could travel to any to places in the world, they would be london and greece
6. i find myself more attached and more interested in people who remind me of myself
7. i dont think i’ve ever actually opened myself up 110% to anyone in my life yet
8. i’ve had my nose pierced for over 2 years
9. most of my spare time is spent either sleeping, tweeting, running, writing, relaxing, smoking, or a combination of any of the above

• its crazy how much i think about you everyday. sometimes i wonder how it would go if i could have just 10 more minutes with you.. what you’d say, what you’d look like, where it’d be, what we’d talk about. what it would be like to see you again, i can only keep imagining. i talked to you all the time about how much i feared death, and i know when the time nears the only thing to look forward to will be seeing you, the both of you again. i decided i wanted to keep a journal, and that everyday i’d write a letter to the both of you, and the day i filled it up, i’ll seal it and leave it at your grave. the amount of impact you had on my life is as equal to the amount of love i have for you both. i know that physically your not here, but i know there have been days where i could just feel you with me, and it’s comforting. i miss you more than words could ever come close to explaining
• i miss seeing your face everyday. i miss our daily visits to the park after school everyday and i miss stopping at hometown market to get my usual junk food and your usual daily paper. i remember the night you came home, your clothes covered in paint. it was past midnight when you told me the news. i woke up the next morning and you were gone. as if you were never even there. why would you do that to me? how could you have left, moved 10 minutes away but never make plans to see me? your own daughter. i’d see you once every couple of months, even though you were less than 10 miles away. why didnt you call? why didnt you try? but suddenly when i move, you fought for me to stay here. but for what? because to me it was like you didnt care if i was there in the first place. i mean, it’s different now and as we both age we grow closer. our relationship has matured, and i’ve never been so close to you in my life. you’re the only man who will ever know the real me, and you’re the realest person i think i’ll ever know
• out of everyone i trust you more than most. our friendship means a lot to me, and we understand each other on a level some people don’t get, if that makes sense? we havent been friends very long but your friendship means a lot to me
• i think about you too much, and sometimes i dont know whether thats a good or bad thing. sometimes i still wish things were different, but im happy with how far we’ve come. it’s been over 2 years, and i’m still not sick of you yet, so thats gotta mean something, right? 
• you remind me of myself, and i guess that’s why i find you so intriguing. sometimes i dont know if your trying to give me signals sometimes. you’re a hard person to read, and i like that about you. i’m sorry she screwed you over, and i’m sorry she did you dirty. i just wish sometimes we could talk about other things besides her.
• if i could cut all your hair off i would and if i could beat your ass and win i would and if i could make you miserable i would and if i could punch you in the fucking face i would and if i could ruin you like you ruined me, you fucking bet i w o u l d
• first things first, you should have your own picture under the dictionary definition of dumb. ill act and talk like i dont miss you, but i do. i dont know what i did wrong, but it sucks knowing i lost our friendship over some dirtbag excuse for a boyfriend. ill be honest, i shed a tear over it. for you to throw away our friendship as it was nothing hurt me, and it angers me to know that  you still have the audacity, after telling me i wasn’t worth your time, to still talk about me behind my back. and if thats the reason your “dumped” me as your friend than you need to realize it was nothing i wouldnt have said to your face. nonetheless, i miss you and i hope your doing well..
• you dont get enough credit for what you’ve been through these past few years, and i want you to know your my bestfriend and that i love you more than you’ll ever know
• sometimes im convinced we were seperated at birth. you’ve been my bestfriend for 12 years and although we may not talk everyday and we may not see eachother everyday, that doesnt mean you dont hold a special place in my heart. i remember the day we got into such a huge fight and you wanted to make me sleep outside on the curb, but after 15 minutes we started hysterically laughing at even the idea. or the time we literally fought to the death over a fucking bouncy ball. seriously bub? what the fuck was wrong with us 5 years ago, god only knows. or the time we put emmy in the toilet, and told grace her mom was dead. im laughing hysterically as i write this to you. do you remember when we made shoes out of leaves? actually fucking leaves because we were too scared to run across the sand that must have been 400 degrees. or the time i waited for you outside the pavilion bathroom until i get a text from you.. “how the fuck do you flush these toilets?” or when we found a half dead bird and brought it home in a shoebox and named it tuesday because we found it on a tuesday? or the time we made dj and jonah get a kayak and rescue us from a floating dock even though the water was 2 ft deep. or the time we got so high and started literally shouting out everyone from woodrow wilsons names in creepy/weird voices while zoe was shitfaced drunk passed out on your bed. oh my god i miss you, and i need to stop here bc i could go on for fucking ever. i love you  T
• i hope we grow up to be close, and i cant wait to see you grow up. your already so intelligent, and talented. i can already see how much you have going for you

heckyeahtumblrchallenges:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

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